Category Archives: Hazards of being an artist

Parental Guidance in Filmmaking.

Do you show your work to your parents? I am sure American parents are super supportive, otherwise how would you explain the unfathomable self assurance of most Americans? The school system conspires with the parents, too. – Both teams have … Continue reading

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39 Months of Gestation: Dark Place.

They say that longer gestation in animals is correlated with more intelligence. Elephants gestate 24 months, sperm whales and dolphins up to 19, walruses – 16. So far “Rocks In My Pockets” has gestated 39 months. I don’t know about … Continue reading

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Money Blues.

It is 4 AM and I wake up with a feeling that a large fist in the center of my stomach is pulling my whole body inside. My muscles crack with tension like guitar strings too tight. My back and … Continue reading

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Depression Question: How Does It Feel?

This is a blog where Depression meets Film. But before Depression met Film, first it shook hands with the filmmaker, actually, still shaking it – the hand and the filmmaker. Why does this filmmaker want to share with everybody her … Continue reading

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N Train Karma.

Karma is everywhere. Even on N train, although N stands for ‘never’, remember? The train that never comes. Last Sunday’s morning found me in my boyfriend’s bed, in East Village. We had to eat breakfast quickly and run to Brooklyn … Continue reading

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Binary System.

0 and 1 work well for making various files on your computer. I regard rejection and acceptance as a similar binary system that creates powerful feedback on your artwork. Just one 0 doesn’t create new information. You need many 0’s … Continue reading

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The Truth of Fiction.

One sometimes have to live with the decisions made by her younger self. You know, with mutilated limbs or a tasteless tattoo on a face. I happen to have to live without a diary I wrote when I was 18. … Continue reading

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