Category Archives: Depression. Personal Stories

39 Months of Gestation: Dark Place.

They say that longer gestation in animals is correlated with more intelligence. Elephants gestate 24 months, sperm whales and dolphins up to 19, walruses – 16. So far “Rocks In My Pockets” has gestated 39 months. I don’t know about … Continue reading

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Depression Question: Nick.

A lot of people intimately familiar with depression are well spoken and elegantly eloquent. Nick is one of them. He kindly submitted himself to Wendy’s gentle grilling. Nick’s answers to same questions are quite different from mine and Charlie’s. I … Continue reading

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Depression Question: Outside Help.

After “what do you do to help yourself?” the next question to answer is ”what people around you can do to help you?”. That is a question I have hard time answering. On one hand, how can you bother other  people … Continue reading

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Depression Question: What do you do?

Thank you for submitting your questions about depression. We selected the 3 of them that had a common theme. The other 3 we’ll reply in the next episode. Please, note, by “we” I mean me and Wendy, who videotapes the … Continue reading

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Depression Question: How Does It Feel?

This is a blog where Depression meets Film. But before Depression met Film, first it shook hands with the filmmaker, actually, still shaking it – the hand and the filmmaker. Why does this filmmaker want to share with everybody her … Continue reading

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N Train Karma.

Karma is everywhere. Even on N train, although N stands for ‘never’, remember? The train that never comes. Last Sunday’s morning found me in my boyfriend’s bed, in East Village. We had to eat breakfast quickly and run to Brooklyn … Continue reading

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Binary System.

0 and 1 work well for making various files on your computer. I regard rejection and acceptance as a similar binary system that creates powerful feedback on your artwork. Just one 0 doesn’t create new information. You need many 0′s … Continue reading

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The Truth of Fiction.

One sometimes have to live with the decisions made by her younger self. You know, with mutilated limbs or a tasteless tattoo on a face. I happen to have to live without a diary I wrote when I was 18. … Continue reading

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Human Nature.

This is an eternal question that both priests and politicians claim to know the answer for but each of us struggles to find our own individual response: Is human nature good or bad? Depending on when and where you catch … Continue reading

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The Tale of N.

Once upon a time there was a girl who had to go from one place (BKLN) to another (MHTN). She went down to the subway and took an N train. But the poor girl didn’t realize that under the ground … Continue reading

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